Be reborn

I’m back. It was a long trip. I thought it was eternal. I saw the return as complex. But here I am… I’m back.
I left without knowing why, or for what… nor to where or until when, much less with whom.

I lived… I accept it. I laughed, I cried, I screamed and I was silent. I tried and I succeeded, and at times I failed.
I hesitated in multiple moments, some were even moments… but so strong that they took me to a small and narrow world.
I saw so many indecipherable objects above me that obscured my vision, that obstructed my path. I saw them in my dreams in alarming quantities, but in life they became realities.

I was scared, my body was shaking thinking about what was happening in my life and not finding clear answers.
I found myself with tears spilling down my cheeks, with occasional tremors that made me feel like I was in the earthquake of my life. He was reeling to the core. My poor heart, how much damage I did to it, how much damage I allowed to be done to it.

And when you have nothing more to hold on to, when the sighs already seem like smoke from a chimney dying out, when the day comes when you feel so dry that your eyes don’t even shine like they once did. When that day came… I woke up.
And although I thought I was lost… here I am.

I have doubts, concerns and many questions that I have not resolved, but I am clear about something and that something… that something is allowing myself to be, accept myself, involve myself in the essence of my individuality.

It’s talking, writing, dancing, acting… it’s being me.

I came back and I will stay, it is rich to doubt, it is rich not to know everything, it is rich to be genuine… being like this everything arises, everything grows, everything happens.

Just lastly, I must say… I don’t promise consistency, but I do promise permanence.